I got introduced to my first gadget when I was a teenager it was a Casio calculator. It was basic and created a lot of fun by pressing in numbers that would spell words when turned upside down. Everything was still pen and paper, not a computer in sight. I did learn typing on a big heavy typewriter, but still no keypad in sight.
This is as far as it went at my school the trusty typewriter for office junior work and telephone answering jobs.
It was not until I was in my late 20s when I got a mobile phone, this was basic back then it enabled you to text and make calls with a few games that was built in. Easy home from home phone but mobile, still nothing too demanding and life carried on the way it always had just we where contactable easier when out and about.
Then 9 years ago I went back to college to do an Indian head massage course, to my horror everything was done on computer as pen and paper was out as of this year. So I had no choice and got my first laptop, I joined Skype and face book and a few forums in which I could write my observations on the world around me.
This back then I could manage as it was easy flow traffic, which was not demanding and you joined in if you wished it had not become a way of life as it was more social. I stepped in and out of these media groups; only to find four years on everything has changed again. When I re joined face book it is not the same, now we have instagram and LinkedIn and twitter. At first I stuck with twitter, as I am no good at multi tasking many sights. So I got comfortable with squeezing my self into and navigating my way basically around and still don’t get it when I am asked to turn on notifications for them. Where and how? I have asked many times I would for you if I knew how! Still none the wiser at all, so I carry on in my little bubble of myself my little pocket of space that I write on.
The other problem I have is this, when I was growing up it was drummed into me to mind my own business, to keep myself to myself. Do not go and be nosey and do not disturb other people unless your invited. Guess the institutional upbringing did not help here. So entering the media web is the polar opposite of how I was brought up. On the web be nosey, search and look, like and follow and intrude. This all goes against my private grain of respect and let others find you other wise your hard sell is going to get on their nerves.
My daughters say mum if you want to get your writing noticed you have to join this, do this and like so others do the same back. As soon as they start showing me how to paste, copy and go on little moments and crop this etc the overwhelming wall raises in front of me, so much to remember so I can post one thing. Why does there have to be so many sites to juggle, why is one not enough? Recently my daughter set me up a website this is cool as I can write and post my blogs to my site to my hearts content.
I admit I am a free flow writer I write from my heart of the cuff, no preplanning I just choose a subject and write away. Yes grammar is an issue and layout but the content is there.
I am honest I am trying to squeeze myself into the media web way of life; it is a squeeze and pinches my head at times and gives me a headache and neck ache. What makes me laugh at times my daughters go to show me how to work it and as they are showing me they will say oh why is it doing that or why is it not working etc. So to me if they are struggling at times how am I meant to work it?
Maybe that is why I stick to my writing on any forum or media site I may find myself on. It is what I know that close resembles the familiar pen and paper that is my comfort zone. I have stepped in and out of the media web so many times I have more pass -words that are long forgotten. As each of my daughter’s over the years have tried to set me up on something only to be left at how it began and forgotten about. I am not computer savvy and I feel I will always be a learner and never quite getting it. To succeed you need followers, you need to network, you need to follow and like and do so many things.
I can write and post that takes all of my energy to get my head around, I still struggle with being nosey as it is not my nature even in an innocent way. If I do not look enough of what you’re doing, or share enough, or seen to be in my own little world it is because I am it is what I am used to. I find the media overwhelming I am not going to lie. Maybe I am set in my ways, or maybe it is just my basic mindset. So if you come across me on the media web I am thankful and happy to connect with you, please remember to tag me or notify me of anything you want me to see, as I am a learner and in the slow lane, and rely on many to pull me along.
I am so interested in people and the world and I care with all my heart its just shown my way and not the fast lane of the web. I get lost in toilets and this is true, I get lost so easy in physical life, so the gadgets way of life I am lost before I even begin. I am happy to share and write but squeezing in the media web is tight for me. Is it just me who is like this? Am I the only one who struggles? Yes I am like a scattered jigsaw puzzle around the media web, bits and pieces of me everywhere. It is not consistent or at times continuous because I just get my head around it and its not the in site no more, join this new one instead as everyone is on this now and not so much on twitter anymore. I find it so hard to keep up.
So please if you ever see Dee Weldon Bird or Dorothy bird or Dee bird crop up anywhere on the web. Know she is lost at most times and trying to keep up. Hold my hand and pull me along and show me the way if you can spare the time. I appreciate no one likes to have to carry someone along just send me a life jacket of a like, or tag or notify me. As one of my one morals I find hard to overcome is be nosey in the sense of not being nosey nosey but joining in by looking at what you do. You see my work as a medium is working from knowing nothing, so by keeping to myself I know nothing about you. So just writing away does not get in the way of not knowing about you.
As I write this post it highlights my dilemma that keeping myself to myself stops me from knowing anything about you. So if you book to have a reading with me it is in confidence that you will know I will know nothing because I stay in my own little world, no matter what is written or shared on the web. So maybe I am lost for a reason and what looks like my inadequacies on the media web is in fact a gift so when we meet it’s a blank page. What I pick up comes from tuning in just not to the physical web but the universal one.
The physical media web I will squeeze into to the best of my ability, I will get lost frequently and you will find me scattered like a jigsaw puzzle. It is hit and miss with me, but I am here always in my heart. I love to write and comfortable to write my blogs for my website. If they get read or noticed I am guessing is because you have been kind enough to share them for me because it touched your heart.
I may be the last one to follow or do something, but I will get there in the end and I am happy to be last as there will be many ahead I can ask on route.
So if you find me or bump into me I say hello and welcome and lets share and talk about life in all its glory.
As this is what we are all in together whether squeezing into life depends if life fits us or if we are trying to fit into life in any medium form.
The words from a Michael Jackson’s song that resonated with me, before you judge me try hard to love me! To love and appreciate anything takes understanding.
I appreciate and understand the fast pace of the media way of life, but does it get me?
Enjoy your space you have on the web and may connections be fun.
Much Love to You Dee xx