MY D FILES – IN THE STARS
When I was 14 years old I had my first encounter with the stars, whether ones had occurred previous to this I do not remember as this account is my first contact that I physically remember.
I did have an unsettled life at this age yet deep down inside of me I was questioning everything we see as life around us. From all the different systems I had been placed in to, and all the different religions the stars and the universe was not in the front of my mind.
Yes it is true I had seen dead people as it is called from a young age and continued to do so. I viewed this as different to the stars and the universe, like we view ourselves differently to what is out there.
One night when going to bed as usual become a night I would not forget one that I remember vividly to this day.
As I thought I was dreaming at first I soon realized I was not, you see I was in what looked like a bubble. I was naked and curled up it was a bit like sitting down with your legs tucked up. This bubble shape I was in was see through so I was able to see all around me totally, and yet I could see it had a protective casing.
I did not feel scared at all in fact it all felt so familiar and calm and peaceful. Although I was physically alone I did not feel alone. As I travelled through space all I could see was the black backdrop and all the stars around me. I could not see any humans, which did not worry me. It was the happiest I had felt in a long time, although nothing happened extraordinary to me this was magical. I felt at home and content and I loved feeling so safe and connected.
It did not bother me having no clothes on as if some how they did not matter. When I woke up the next morning I had tears streaming down my face, I was so upset as I did not want to leave the stars. I was so happy and content there. I kept this experience to myself and quickly got dressed for school with a heavy feeling of being back here. Yet I could remember that feeling in the stars whenever I wished and connect with it.
Life distracted me from this experience and pushed it to the back of my mind, I did wonder for a few days after why had I experienced it? I had no answers back then so I did not dwell on it I just put it down to a magical experience. All I knew at the time was that I was much more happier amongst the stars that night than on earth.
The stars felt like home and so familiar to me something that did not make sense to the physical mind of understanding life. After all life is physical and that is it, so this experience matches nothing here with earth.
At the time I was thankful for the feelings I felt while I travelled amongst the stars, which gave me respite from the challenges I was facing in this lifetime on earth.
This is a second piece to my puzzle, many pieces where to follow as I grew up although none of them made sense on their own at the time. Because years passed between them I kept them separate, until that is I started to join them together which gave me a bigger picture. It showed me how all these experiences are not separate after all and connected. Some experiences have been subtle and some are not, yet all of them have impacted me for many different reasons.
I struggled to feel at home on earth no matter where I lived or whom I shared my life with. Now it did not worry me so much as I had contact with home in the stars I just did not know it yet.
They say home is where the heart is; my home is everywhere out there just not limited to earth.
When you look up at the stars there is so much more out there than what the physical eyes see.
Contact is continuous once you are aware of the connection; it’s a double-edged sword in some ways as life on earth is nothing like space. I have to adapt to living here while knowing there is a bigger picture. Even though I have time out in which to explore in the magic out there, the tough bit is coming back.
Much Love to You