It was when I was 14 years old life with the paranormal increased, as if coming of an age in which this door started to open more which continues to this day. At this age I did not physically understand it but some how grew with it. It was mainly at nighttime as I lay in bed I could see and feel there was a presence in my room. Back then it felt male, it was not like how it was when I was a 7 year old. When I first saw people that had passed it felt natural. Yet living within different institutions and religions the fear of god had been put into me and being told all this is evil. So for the first time in my life I was scared, as I did not understand why this was happening to me, as I had not asked for it.
I was that scared that I would roll into a ball sitting on the corner of my bed with my back resting on the corner of the wall. My bed was pushed up to the wall, which made this possible. I would stare around the room and not go to sleep in the end I had to sleep with the light on so I could see. This went on for a year or so until my foster family sent me for tests. To work out why I was seeing what I was saying as they did not believe in such things. So I had sleep tests and they stuck things all over my head. The results came back to say I had epilepsy, although I had never had a fit in my life I only saw things others could not see. I was given tablets that made me really ill, so after a month I took myself off them I never had a follow up appointment so all this did not make sense to me. Until I was older when I was told how my mum had mental illness schizophrenia so I guess seeing things they thought I had something wrong too. I didn’t.
So I kept my experiences to myself as I realized that people did not understand it, they mocked it and me, and where not open about such things as much as maybe people are now. Over the next 15 years I experienced many different things some are mainstream and some are not.
When I had children of my own, toys would start working on their own. Pens would disappear from my work uniform and reappeared at work. Smoke rings appeared next to my then partner who did not smoke. I saw people walk down my path and disappear. I went to sleep one night only to be woken by a dead friend who had passed a few years before. I was so excited to see her I remember saying to her you look well, she replied saying I am thank you. Although in my thoughts I thought what a silly thing to say to someone who was dead. Before she went she held her hand out to shake mine, It was like slow motion and I thought to myself oh no this is going to be cold as she is dead. The complete opposite happened, her hand was so warm that the palm of my hand stayed warm all the following day, feeling her hand in mine was solid and physically real.
Things would often move in our home, music would play when no one was in the room or even if the item was not plugged in. when these occasions happened it was like a message as if to say time for work something needs your attention. These happenings did not scare me as I understood what they meant and they held a message. I would see from time to time murder victims and they would just want to be heard and show they are ok. When I was in my late 20s I did tarot cards as people related to the visual of them more back then, until one day as I drove home after doing a reading my book disappeared from my passenger seat I was left with just the cards. So I stopped doing tarot readings from this point on as they where showing me it was time to do my natural readings without any tools. After a time I noticed during a reading I was able to look inside people as if like an x-ray. I could see where people had previously broken a bone or what was going on inside although I am not a doctor with knowledge I could see inside their body, again this felt normal.
I once sat in my garden sunbathing as I sat on the recliner chair with the back of the chair facing the sun, as I got up my kids noticed I had tan lines on my back even though I had been resting on the chair. Another time when I went through a phase of smoking I had thrown a butt out of the car, only for the wind to blow it back in and land on my seat. I could feel the heat of it under my leg and upset it would have ruined my new trousers I was wearing. When I parked up there was no burn mark on the seat none on my trousers, but as I pulled my trousers down I had a bruise like mark the size of a butt.
Over the years I have seen Victorian people walk past in their rustling long dresses, seen kids with caps on from that era. Feeling animals on my bed even making the indentation from their weight. Seen people walk past and sit next to me on the sofa and feel the weight on the sofa as they sit down, as I turn around they have gone. John F Kennedy came to me on the anniversary of his death 10 months before 9/11 he showed me about a plane going off the radar and to do with America so I phoned the sun news paper at the time to tell them something bad is going to happen in America. The person I spoke to most probably just thought I was nuts as I did not understand what I was seeing but I knew it was a message to pass on which is my job.
I was shown from an ancient Indian man how to do pulse magnetic massage an ancient treatment long forgotten now which works with the energy fields within the body.
Another time during a reading a man came through and wanted to hug the lady who had come for the reading. Like the film ghost I let him use my body, it is an experience I will never forget even though I did not look any different to the physical eye. I felt like a man and felt and saw the arms of a man within me. The lady receiving the hug felt the same. It has not happened again since but it was phenomenal.
They have got my attention in many different ways, so contact is made in which to bring a message to a loved one they wish to contact. I have had my shopping swapped from my trolley into another ladies trolley.
Years back I went to my school reunion, once people knew what I did one man wanted to have a reading with me. So we arranged to meet by a big roundabout so he could follow me in his car to my home. As I approached the roundabout I saw a car parked up in a lay by with a man standing outside the drivers door, what stood out about him was the white t-shirt he was wearing it was so bright, I thought to myself he must use an amazing washing powder. As I drove closer I could see the wind blowing through his hair as he stood by the car. As I got even closer to the car I noticed this man was no longer standing there and my friend from school was sitting in the driving seat. He followed me and I thought no more of it. It was not until we did the reading and the information that came through from his dad, that he had been buried in a white t-shirt. The man that was standing by his car had been his dad after all. Apart from his white t-shirt that stood out at the time I would not have known he was not a normal physical person in life. They are real and as solid as you and me which makes it hard for me sometimes to know if they are passed or this side, unless something different stands out about them.
Life living in the paranormal to me, growing up in it, with those first 15 odd years taught me so much about the afterlife, it is so much more than contact it is about connection. I have seen an angel, that is nothing like what is shown in pictures. I was sitting in my lounge one day, and there in front of me stood an angel. I was not really up on angels and so it was an area I knew nothing about. This man stood in front of me so big at least 8ft tall, his wings looked dullish not flat or glowing crisp white. His wings looked so heavy and like an ivory colour like papyrus paper. Well not white any way like the images we see. They where also not flat they where bulbous with dark black looking veins through them. It is so hard to explain in words what you see visually. I asked him how do you get about with such huge wings that look so heavy? He said they fold in look, and he said they may look heavy but they are not they are light like your canoe’s are. As an example, he then showed me where he lived, it was lovely and green with lots of water and water falls. He showed me an envelope, which I did not know what he meant, so once he had given me all the information where he lived. I rushed to the library to look up angels and if any of them where associated with water. I found one but all these years on I cannot remember the name, as I am no good with remembering names, I think it may have been Michael but not sure I would have to look it up again. It was a lovely experience purely because it was so different to what we are shown how angels are drawn, so I know It is not my imagination as not seen an image like what I have seen.
To be honest all what I have shared here has been my basic introduction of learning about the afterlife, which is recognized in the physical, which is often relatable. What it taught me is that talking to people that have passed is a language that takes many years to understand. It is nothing to be scared of, and I am thankful to my friends in the universe for guiding me and looking out for me. They have shown me how we are all in the afterlife now something you do not have to wait to die for. As death is just a different frequency to that what the physical tunes in to. I have seen the physical body of my partner and their afterlife energy body at the same time so there in front of me it two of them. We are taught to separate everything the universe has taught me how to connect everything. Recently over the last year I have been shown visions on a personal level, which is new to me. I was shown that my dog would pass of a heart attack, my black and white dog. I knew she had not been in great health but she was the adopted mum to my other three dogs, one in particular koko. I pushed it to the back of my mind until one morning after I had done my keep fit. I went downstairs to feed my dogs. They all ate as usual until koko started to be sick which was something she did from time to time if she had rushed eating it. Then she fell to the floor with no sound then urinated on the floor, it was then I knew she had passed instantly of a heart attack. She was so young and so healthy it was such a shock, so although it did not happen to my dog I had shown I feel because she had been her mum she was letting me know in the vision to let me know she knew what was coming. Which in a strange way showed me how animals are connected and know the bigger picture to. I had one other vision around this time, which confuses me to this day one, that thankfully did not happen but one that was both enlightening but personally affecting. I got to see what it felt like and what it looked like being in the womb as much as this sounds odd, I am willing to learn everything and understand as much as I can about life in all areas, even pre physical birth. Life encompasses everything and I am open to explore life where it takes me.
Living with the paranormal has enriched my life in ways that the physical cannot do. This introduction of experiences opened up a bigger door into the universe of all life, which I am writing about in my D files. So if you are interested in the paranormal and wish to understand more about life passed afterlife experiences then you will enjoy reading about the bigger picture of the universe. It is only scary if you do not understand it and so the natural reaction is to fear it. The more you understand it the more you love it. Life is after all is meant to be loved and not feared.
Much Love to You